I will take this Not too bad for me.
Since I pressed snoozed until 5am, it’s a rest day.
Have to make it a good workout tomorrow morning!
Thursday results
Great day
Great intake and steps today 👍
Happy hump day
we got this!
I had a great workout this morning 💪
Put my cc away so I don’t pick up take out on the way home. I got this!
One meal, one day at a time.
Cals and steps for day
Not at goal for steps but getting there I will take it. Will try to aim for 4,000 steps in my morning workout- which will bring me closer to goal 💪
Calories in not good. Have to work on dinners.
Now time for some light therapy
Terrific Tuesday
Early morning workout done.
on another note..
back to school in 2 more weeks. 📚
Taking Java programming and an English / writing course with a lab (yuck on this one)
I don’t like writing or expressing feelings and long drawn out shit lol!
I’ve never scored As on writing papers. Maybe, somehow this blogging will help 🤷🏻♀️
Make it a good day ☀️
Yay
i returned the wireless headphones. I never return things. 👍 good job.
Then… went and got my eye brows threaded (I have to redo but that’s besides the point). I always come home after work and stay in. Good job 👍
I didn’t make my goal of 10,000 steps but I’m still happy with it.
ok, the bad news. I ate over my 1,200 cal budget. Dr. Now won’t be happy. Boo. 👎
Tomorrow I need to have a good workout!
Make it a great night!
Addiction
Woke up had my morning coffee with a couple of cigs.
During my early morning workout I realized I have an addictive personality, just haven’t lumped it all in.
I’m addicted to food, cigarettes and impulsive spending with my credit cards especially (like those 150$ wireless buds that I didn’t need.)
All the more I realized a need for change in my life! I’ve been battling those 3 demons separately and somehow I need to battle it as one, ADDICTION.
This is very hard to admit as I’m a strong independent woman. I believe the addiction stems from early on, as a way to push other traumas and feelings out.
This new life is fucking hard work!
I can do it I will do it I am doing it!
I deserve it
I’M WORTH IT! These are the words I HAVE to keep telling myself. I’m worth having the life I’ve worked hard for and not to sabatoge it.
I have so much on my mind, but I know I can work through it.
Make it a great day!
Smile always let them see you smile 😀 it helps you and helps others!
Moving forward & Working for it
Smoking has been and is a huge part of my life.
I quit for 3 weeks then smoked a couple of packs. Stopped for 3 days then bought a couple of packs. See where this is going?
As I write this I’m chewing nicotine gum. It’s a new day and no cigarettes left.
Speaking of a new day, I had to block my ex last night. He’s an ex for a reason. I’m moving forward!
I need to start doing things differently in my life, so not to keep making the same mistakes like letting old friends (like my ex and shitty cigarettes) creep back in.
Its hard but every day I take a step to move forward…For some reason I sabatoge myself; because I know this, recovery comes sooner than later.
I am a strong woman 💪
I can do it. I will do it. I am doing it!
Make it a grea day! ☀️
Update wireless earbuds
they aren’t for me!
I wore them for a minute while cleaning my yard. I must have weird small ears because I’ve tried many and they don’t stay in.
These are a little better but I don’t like the feeling as they block out the outside word (if in right and tight).
So, I need to break my life streak of not returning anything because these were 150.00 and right now the budget is tight. The effort has to be made, back they go.
I will stick to my wireless over the head headphones! They were great while I mowed through the jungle!
On another note now my neighbors won’t kick me out of the neighborhood, lol, because yard looks so much better. 👍
Just can’t have them over to see my back yard lol . 😩
It is a great feeling to have a mowed lawn free from weeds! I’ve been neglecting my yard every year but the new me isn’t going to let that happen. It’s great exercise and a natural feel good high.
This post is a little longer than the usual because I started this blog thing to help me express my feelings and today I’m doing that.
I’ve been fighting depression my whole life and I go through spurts of getting back on track. This time around I’ve stuck to taking care of myself a lot longer and not staying down when I feel down! 💪 I know I can do it! One day at a time!
Will update when I return the buds back to Best Buy as that will be a big step for me!
Make it a good day!
Smile. Always smile!
I am doing it!
Truly wireless ear buds
150.00 – I don’t return things so hopefully they do the job!
Comes with a charging case
Wireless headphones
ive tried many ear buds including wireless and never found a comfortable pair that actually stood in my ears.
I’m feeling hopeful about the pair I purchased today!
tomorrow will be the true test when I use them to clean my yard for an hour or so.
