I slipped this evening and had 4 cigs. But for my psyche I can’t count it as starting over again. Why did I do it? Habit. Loneliness. I’m lonely. I don’t like to talk much about my personal life but there it is.
On a good note I exercised! Got my steps in! Gooaalll!!
I have a stomachache because of the shitty gorge from last night; so didn’t eat all calories today.
feeling bloated this morning. Why? As I’m watching tv last night I had this over whelming urge to smoke! Ughh, I didn’t. I went to my second vice… junk food! Pint of Ben n Jerry’s ice cream with peanut mms. Yep! I did but you know what I’m def not beating myself up. Why? Because normally, A short 3 weeks ago, I would have smoked and ate that sugar shit food! So I’m doing it!!
My blood sugars have been higher than usual- I took off the nictotine patch as nicotine raises my blood sugars.
My BS was 165 post lunch. I know they have been higher past few weeks but I’m working on lowering my sugar levels! I use my net diary to count calories and macro nutrients. I get a ball park figure on my carbs. It’s a great app!
Anyway back to the nicotine… I used the patch for a week and with my determination, I don’t see the need to keep continuing. I have quit cold turkey in the past and the first week was always the worst. I’ve gone back to smoking because I wanted to… I missed it. IT was my best friend. No more! I’M my new best friend!
Looking forward to lower boood sugars and better health! One meal, day, and habit at a time. I can do it!