Ahh 💪✔️

Work out done. Felt good as it’s been a while.
My smoking cessation class is this afternoon. I have to come clean with the group as I haven’t stuck to my plan but I never give up!!

On a more positive note, I got into the masters program for health informatics.
Now I just need to pass this last course I’m in for my bachelors. I hate challenge based classes! You basically teach yourself. 🧐

make it a good day. I always try.

So much to achieve

wow this morning I sit on my couch having my coffee and watching my frog thinking … we (I’m) always looking to “better” myself. Become the person I want to be.  Be the person I want to be. That’s what I tell my grown kids. Be the person you want to be. Every day work at it. A little bit of work every day pays off, that’s for sure!!
I’ve been “working” on myself for years. I believe we all have room for growth and life teaches us lessons so we can grow from them.

Right now I’m working on being more analytical and less emotional.  Thinking before I speak. Wow these two things are so hard for me.

Anyway, I’m also working on other things like taking care of myself.
Got my hair colored ,highlights and cut yesterday! I feel great! Saturday getting eyelash lift and tint.  😍

Big new, today is day  1  to quitting those nasty  cigarettes.

I have a wellness coach I speak with once per week to guide me in this process of quitting for good!

And a deep breathe in. Thinking .. I’m in my last class before I graduate with my bachelors. Stick it out!! It’s almost done.

Positive thinking and always moving forward. Changing things up to get through the bumps.

Feeling good in this dreary rainy day! Nice I quit smoking in a day like this! Ha! Don’t have to go out in this crappy weather. Already a plus!!

I’m going through a process right now. It feels bigger than my normal “work at myself to be a better person”

I feel like I’m going through a metamorphosis.
Or could be a mid life crisis, as they say lol   😝 I’m at that age.
What ever it is , I’m embracing it!

Make it a great day!

Addiction

Woke up had my morning coffee with a couple of cigs.

Love sitting on my porch in the morning

During  my early morning workout I realized I have an addictive  personality, just haven’t lumped it all in.

My workout area
My home gym
yessa
4 am workout

I’m addicted to food, cigarettes and impulsive spending with my credit cards especially (like those 150$ wireless buds that I didn’t need.)

Wireless earbuds
Have to return these suckers

All the more I realized a need for change in my life! I’ve been battling those 3 demons separately and somehow I need to battle it as one, ADDICTION.

This is very hard to admit as I’m a strong independent woman. I believe the addiction stems from early on, as a way to push other traumas and feelings out.

This new life is fucking hard work!

I can do it  I will do it I am doing it!

I deserve it

I’M WORTH IT! These are the words I HAVE to keep telling myself. I’m worth having the life I’ve worked hard for and not to sabatoge it.

I have so much on my mind, but I know I can work through it.

Make it a great day!

Smile always let them see you smile 😀 it helps you and helps others!

 

 

Moving forward & Working for it

Smoking has been and is a huge part of my life.

I quit for 3 weeks then smoked a couple  of packs. Stopped for 3 days then bought a couple of packs. See where this is going?

As I write this I’m chewing nicotine gum.  It’s a new day and no cigarettes left.

Speaking of a new day, I had to block my ex last night. He’s an ex for a reason. I’m moving forward!

I need to start doing things differently in my life, so not to keep making the same mistakes like letting old friends (like my ex and shitty cigarettes) creep back in.

Its hard but every day I take a step to move forward…For some reason I sabatoge myself; because I know this, recovery comes sooner than later.

I am a strong woman 💪

I can do it. I will do it. I am doing it!

Make it a grea day! ☀️

 

Sunday

No workout this morning but worked my second job so got some steps in.

Fitbit Sunday
I will take it

 

Ate light through out the day but then had kfc. No cigarettes. Why am I craving? It’s 3 weeks today. Blah blah. I’m fighting this shit! 🚭

MyNetDiary
Will take it.. for now.

 

Slipped

I slipped this evening and had 4 cigs. But for my psyche I can’t count it as starting over again. Why did I do it? Habit. Loneliness. I’m lonely. I don’t like to talk much about my personal life but there it is.

On a good note I exercised! Got my steps in! Gooaalll!!

fitbit goal
Goal!

 

I have a stomachache because of the shitty gorge from last night; so didn’t eat all calories today.

mynet diary- Saturday
Saturday calories

Day 13

30 min workout done 💪

Fitbit 1 Saturday  morning
30 min weight training with light cardio 💪

feeling bloated this morning. Why? As I’m watching tv last night I had this over whelming urge to smoke! Ughh, I didn’t. I went to my second vice… junk food! Pint of Ben n Jerry’s ice cream with peanut mms. Yep! I did but you know what I’m def not beating myself up. Why? Because normally, A short 3 weeks ago, I would have smoked and ate that sugar shit food! So I’m doing it!!

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Tuesday recap

I’m changing my life!

 

Had a great day at work. I feel good today 😊👍

– Took my collagen peptides and tumeric this morning, with my coffee of course.

– bought some over the counter iron,  SlowFE , because of my IBS. Will start with 1 pill every other day.

– been cigarette free for over 2 weeks! 👊

 

Here are my stats

Total calories - MyNetDiary
Total

 

Total - Fitbit
Total steps

 

I CAN DO IT, I WILL DO IT, I AM DOING IT!